I just can’t keep this to myself anymore. I feel as if my body is going to explode or spontaneously combust if I don’t share. I choose to be honest and vulnerable with you. I have nothing to hide, so you are my captive audience. I must be open, so come and take this journey with me.
As I sit here pondering over my life, I am overwhelmed, but not with sadness, grief, or depression. I am overwhelmed with God’s love for me. I am overwhelmed with joy. I am overwhelmed with hope. I am overwhelmed with knowing that God is pouring out His favor and blessings on me. I am overwhelmed with a vision for my future. So many things overwhelming me that I can hardly contain myself.
There were many days in my past when I questioned even if it would be possible for me to move forward, but here I stand today on the brink of so many wonderful things. Things that I don’t even have a clue as to what they are just yet, but even in the unknown, still I sense and know in my spirit that God is up to something…and that something is so awesomely beautiful. More awesomely beautiful than I can even think or imagine.
No one has to convince me of anything. I know God is at work. I’ve been sensing this for quite some time now. It’s not anything that I had to work up in my emotions. It’s a quiet and peaceful spot that brings me to a place of contentment. A place of resting in the knowledge that as I am obedient to Him, then He will bring about the exceedingly, abundantly in my life. I don’t make anything happen. I don’t manipulate anything. I just stay true and faithful to those things that He has called me to, and I watch Him put it all together.
My words do not do this justice to the place that God has me. In fact, most of the time I can’t even verbalize all of these beautiful things that I am experiencing. I try, but then I am forced once again to a place of tears. Not sad tears, but tears of joy. No one knows just what it took to change those tears of sadness to joy, that is no one except God. He has been right with me every single moment. Even those moments that I thought were a life sentence to a place of despair and darkness. He didn’t leave me there. He brought me out into a land flowing with milk and honey. A place of overflow. A place of more than enough. A place of shalom – nothing missing, nothing broken. A place of total healing of all that was damaged in my life. A place of overwhelming beauty.
I am moving forward in my life, but not on my own. It’s only with God’s help that I’ve been able to do this. This hasn’t been an overnight process. Its been far from that. It’s been more like a process of day after day and month after month of allowing God to bring me to this place. Now that I’m here, I love the place that He has brought me to. In fact, I wouldn’t want to be anyplace else. It’s such a sweet and rich place of living in His truth every single day. I love my life. I love everything about it. I love those things that I never thought or saw myself loving. I never dreamed that I would be saying this today. Once again, God surprised me as He so often does.
So as I sit here and continue to make sense of this place that God has me, I know that I won’t be here forever. In fact, I am moving forward even as we speak. Does that make me sad? No, because He continues to bring me to even greater places. Places that I don’t even have the ability to comprehend at this moment. When I get to the new places, then even more will begin to make sense than it does right now. I am a work in progress on a journey in progress with a God that has already traveled that progress. He’s been in my past, but yet He’s already been in my future. I can trust Him because He’s traveled the journey every step with me from what’s already been to what is yet to be. He sees and knows it all. What a comforting thought! I don’t travel any of it alone.
So rejoice with me on my journey. I will rejoice with you on your journey when I see just how far He has brought you. In fact, let’s rejoice together. He likes it better that way. You and I seeing and experiencing just how great our God is and just how much He loves us. Enjoying these places that He has both brought us to. Places that we would have never visited on our own, but places He desired that we visit from the very beginning. Let’s get going!