“He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.” Psalm 147:3
There are times that our emotions are so real and intense that they are difficult to put into words. I experienced one of those times just going about my regular day-to-day life. It completely hit me out of nowhere. I wasn’t expecting it, but it was expecting me. This is one time that I wish that it had found another address, but God had different plans in mind.
I was leaving work as I do every day so nothing out of the ordinary with this event. My van started to overheat so I pulled over at one of my favorite spots to get one of my lovely specialty coffee drinks. I figured this would give me time to put antifreeze in my van and then allow it time to cool down. I followed through and was more than ready to get on the road because I had somewhere important to be. I was also enjoying every minute of my lovely mocha frappe drink, but that’s a story for another day. Yes I could write a blogpost about my love for mocha frappes. They mean that much to me.
Well after pulling back out onto the road, my van temperature gauge began to head back to that naughty H mark. I was not happy about that at all. So I did what I knew that I had to do. I drove about 1/10 of a mile and made another stop. By this time I was beginning to get really frustrated because this was messing up everything about my afternoon. This wasn’t supposed to be happening to me, but that’s where it all began to break down for me.
In that parking lot of my second stop, it hit me out of nowhere. What hit me, you ask? It was the deep, dark emotion of loneliness. I wasn’t prepared for it. It was the kind of loneliness that hurts deep inside your soul. The kind that you just can’t seem to shake. It really didn’t make sense in the natural because I had people to call and ask for help. In fact, I had strangers willing to help me out with my van problems. So it wasn’t that I was without help and completely stranded. It was just the simple fact that I felt as if I was dealing with my problem all on my own. Now that wasn’t true, but that’s the lie that Satan was having me to believe.
Then my mind began to run wild with every thought imaginable. I began to get overwhelmed just thinking about how lonely it can feel sometimes in my new season of life. In these times, Satan loves to bring back hurtful and painful thoughts to my mind. It’s like rubbing salt in a wound. Let me just tell you, this parking lot incident hurt! It was horrible! I felt my heart breaking into a million pieces all over again, but that’s when it all began to change for me. See this is where God came to my rescue. Amidst experiencing this awful emotion of loneliness, God reminded me to stop listening to those lies that Satan was trying to speak over me. God began to remind me just who I was. He reminded me that loneliness was just an emotion, and that I had the authority in Him to change this negative mindset. So I did the wise thing, and I changed my stinking thinking! God reminded me that Satan is a liar so I shouldn’t believe a thing that he says. Actually, the truth is the opposite of what Satan speaks, so I knew that I didn’t have to take it anymore! There will be times in life that I will experience loneliness again. I don’t like it, but that’s just life on planet earth until I get to heaven. I may feel lonely, but with God I am never alone. I’ve made up my mind that the next time that Satan brings this garbage dump thinking to my mind, then I’m just going to remind him that My Abba Father said that He would never leave me or forsake me. That will pretty much shut him down because he can’t compete with my Father on that one. There’s nothing like the power of speaking God’s Word out loud. God’s Word is my weapon, and I know how to use it!